ASR: B10: Chapter 4: What If Time Is Not Linear?
For most of my life I live my “spiritual” half like an amnesic semi-blind person. I was not told what the laws and restrictions are. So, most time I walked blindly headfirst into the invisible walls that declares its limits. Thus, each experience is remembered with caution. Being a semi-blind person, living in the dark when you accidently touch fire, it hurts! You are sure to remember the pain so you would not do it again. However, occasionally, out of curiosity you touch it again — just to make sure it is really there. The pain is a reminder that it is real even if you cannot see it. Thus, being one of inquisitive mind, I poke at that fire often to keep myself grounded to my unusual situation.
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How do we convince someone our persistent reality — is the only reality?
When they have lived our future — as their past
In another reality, that we know nothing of.
In our “reality”, which they are also a part of,
It is believed by assumption: that time is linear.
There is a past, a present, and a future.
Event happened in sequences. One must follow the other.
The past must be followed by the present, and the present will lead to the future.
There is an “order” that need to be fulfilled.
That is what which we were taught.
If that assumption of time is true.
Then, how do we explain that someone can live our future — as their past?
How can we declare based on assumptions: that ours, is the only true “reality”,
and prosecute anyone who says otherwise?
When we, ourselves, have no experience to back us up.
With only empty assumptions and misguided information taught to us by others like us?
A case of the blind leading the blind.
We are bound to get lost if our leader has no idea where they are going.
Thus, what gives us such confident to judge and prosecute others?
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Higher truth is not assumptions, it is not believes based on the vote of majority. Higher truth exist because it is. It exist — it happened. It does not have to happen more than once, and it does not have to happen to us specifically. It happened! That is all that matters. It happened to someone. Someone experienced it. Not an idea or a theory.
Just because we have not discovered or yet know something existed. Does not mean it does not exist because we are ignorance to it. Other realms exist. Whether we believe in ghosts or the spiritual realm or not. Whether we had an encounter or not. Our history of humanity, not just of a culture or a country, proves this fact. Thus, how can we declare someone “insane” for experiencing another realm, when we have no idea what “sanity” really means? Because we have never experienced it ourselves.
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Following the funeral incident bizarre things started happening to me in sequences with more intensity and frequency than it ever has been. Before I went to the funeral and encounter the light; I have experienced many, many strange and unexplainable events in my daily life. But just before that event, the intensity picked up to an oddly unprecedented frequency. I had dreamt about the man’s death; I knew what day he will die and when. I met his father in my “dream”, a man I have never met before I met the real man. Then again, that is pretty “normal” to me. As I often meet people all the time in my “dreams” way before I ever encounter them in “real” life.
What is “real life”? Is my “dreams” “REAL” life or is this life a “dream”? I mean, if this is “real life” then why does the event happen only after I have “dreamt” about them? If dreams are a subconscious work of the imagination as some people say. Then how do we explain that I met people I have never met before. Been to events and places I have never been to or seen before it happened. If “dreams” are not “reality”, then why does my “dream” happen sometimes years before I actually “live” it?
So, the question that have bothered me is: Is “real life” as other people have known it — is a dream or are the “dreams” I have been having — “real life”? By the mediocre world’s law of “logic” thoughts happens before creation. We “manifest our life the way we want it”. I hear that phrase a lot from so many people. “Spiritual” or “non-spiritual”. Thus, if dreams are creations of the mind — it should have some correlations that links to “real life”. Should it not follow “real life” as most people have assumed? But it is the opposite for me. “Real” life follows my “dreams”.
How can I understand and relate to other people’s definition of “Real life” and “dreams”? When my experiences with those terms defines it differently? How can I trust this moment is “real” when I have “lived” its “future” in my “dreams” — years before I live it? I “lived” other people’s future in my “dreams” too. If all those sayings about “manifestation” has any truth, who am I to be able to “manifest” you from my “dream” into this “life”? It is one thing to “attract” people into our lives when they are already here. Another to be able to “manifest” people who have not yet been conceived into this realm — right?
This is the biggest struggle my human-half has with denying its spiritual counterpart. It grew up in a world where it is taught to embrace and anchor itself to “logic”, “rationality”, and “practicality”. Where it is made fun of and looked down upon for being able to live outside the limited definition of how everyone perceives those terms. It gets so lost and confused when it is hit repeatedly with the higher truths of being able to “dream” people into life. How can “logic” and “rationality” explain having the abilities to meet and see who will be coming into your life (and others) before they are yet even physically conceived? Or thoughts of their conception have even crossed the mind of those who will give birth to them?
Side Note: Confused? Is my wording giving you a headache? Join the club. Try trying to write this book and capturing all the events. Try trying to express it. Try trying to understand all this, while being “blocked” and taught otherwise. It took me almost 10 years to get it to start making any kind of sense to me — a LIFETIME before that to even be able to pen it. There are times I seriously think running into the walls and knocking myself out cold; or banging my head until I lose all conscious thoughts. Or do some brain damage would be a lot easier than trying to “organize” my experiences, understands it — so I can express it. So, thank you for baring with me.
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Walking upon this realm semi-blindly as a “spiritualist” being blocked from who I really am, while being isolated from any physical mentors. I did not understand all the many signs that are send my way. Taught that this realm’s languages are the only true languages of the universe. Though, I instinctively recognize and understands the language of the higher realm, I learned to bypass it as I struggles to “fit in”. Hence, I did not think most of my “dreams” have any significances. Thus, it was a surprise when about 12 years ago after the reconfirmations by the psychic of who I am.
Events that happen in my life that does not make sense before, start to make sense without much effort. An example are old “dreams” that does not make sense before — beginning to make sense now. Pieces of the same “dreams” I have dreamt since I was a kid that does not make any sense then, started making sense now. After my New York encounter with the psychic, I started “redreaming” what I thought was insignificant “dreams” that for some reason would not fade with the years.
I begin to “dream” the prequel and sequel to those “dreams” that I have thought nothing of after waking up from it almost half a lifetime before. Those differences in the years that was in between does not seem to matter. Because most of my “dreams” are remembered as vividly as the day I “dreamt” them. I might not be able to “organize” and describe them in words, but never forget them. My “dreams” explains other “dreams” I have had. It also started explaining, confirming, and giving answers and confirmations to theories, hypothesis, and questions of “real life”. It also clarifies unusual physical events that I have faced with over the course of my life. To help me “organize” and “rearrange” pieces of my “lives/timelines” like puzzles, so that I can start making sense of it.
Insights and wisdoms that has been choking me with haunting “tip-of the tongue” frustration — That I have been agonizing over the years, started to resurface with extraordinary intensity and clarity. Questions that torture me for years begin to reveal itself — But still I did not believe. I cannot believe. It is too beyond my logical, rational, and practical — conditioned and trained mind to wrap my head around. Maybe, this is because I did not want to believe. It was too hard to accept all the sudden revelations. Hard to believe and coop with the fact that everything I have been taught throughout my life in this physical world — ls nothing but an illusion waiting for me to wake up from.
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It took a year and a bit, after my encounter with the psychic in New York and then a random encounter with someone I have previously met first in my “dream”. Then, in “real” life, to put my life into perspective and started me down the road of “spiritual” discovery. For over two years before that encounter, I was a mess: Not knowing what to believe in; not knowing what “reality” to trust and ground myself with. Because the pieces of puzzles do not all fits together and even those that fits together — Does not seem to make sense due to what I know and what have been taught to me.
Part of the pictures that emerge does not makes sense to the half of me that was raised here upon this realm and taught its perspectives. The part that was grounded to logic, practicality, rationality, and trying to survive life by the “rules” that I was taught. To the other half, it makes perfect sense. But it conflicts with what I was told and taught by others who can only see the same things as its other half. Because of this conflict. Because I cannot understand what I know, I was afraid and could not accept its truth as a possibility.
But when this person found me and said, “Maybe unlike other people, you are trying to find the roadmap back to the beginning; instead of going where everyone else is trying to get to.” He put simply what I have always known and was choking on. Afraid and did not have the confident to put into words and cannot get out for years. Due to all the higher discipline lessons I received to temper my human ego. Due to all the misinformation, I was taught about “spirituality” and the reasons for life existence. I could not put into word what I know.
Not until the time is right. Not until I am strong enough to “neutralize” some of my “spiritual”-self’s greatest challengers. Human nature is and will always be a “spiritual” being greatest challengers. The human ego especially is a strong opponent to tame. For someone who instinctively knows the power they hold. It is even harder to convince it to step back when it is face with trials and hardships to learn life lessons. I thought I knew how strong my opponents are, but I came short of my estimations. Hence, today I humbly thank again my higher teams and source for how strict they are towards me.
Like the psychic, he was not my first confirmation, nor was he the last. Before her and him, before even the funeral: Things have started to speed up upon this journey that destiny has mapped out for me since that day when I was two; and time stopped for the first time. Over the years the frequency of events was consistent. But in the last 10 years before the psychic, it has jumped in leaps and bounds. It was like my whole life I was training and studying for a major exam…
