ASR: B13: Chapter 12: A Test With Obvious Answers — Is Sometimes Just A Trick Question On A Not So Obvious Exam.

Back when I was lost and misguided to believe that there are only so many suits. Therefore, I need to make sure I grew to fit into one of those suits — if I were to ever get anywhere in life or the thereafter. I was so stressed because I know I am not built like everyone else. I did not know however, that I am already wearing a suit. This suit is customized to me — and it will grow and adjust to suit my needs.

For a time, my suit is designed with a much more snugged fit than others around me. Seeing the ease and comfort of those around in their suits; made mine felt even more restrictive and uncomfortable. Thus, I long to shed it. Long to be released from its confinements. Having thoroughly checked and realizing I am stuck and imprisoned within it. I begin to panic when I was told and taught, my suit is “not normal”. That it is “wrong” at every turn. Therefore, not “good” and needed to be changed.

I started to despair and wondered why, theorizes ideas, and tests my boundaries with rebelliousness. Because I spend a large majority of my life being told I must change my suits and struggling to do just that. It became a mindless habit to fight acceptance. An unaware reaction to blocking anything I was taught by my spiritual guides, that is outside of what is templated and conditioned for me to believe in. Therefore, it took some adjusting, when I realize everything that I am physically taught to know is an illusion. Only to also then, be shown everything that I am spiritually taught by my guides that is considered an illusion — Is beyond the comprehension of someone who have never experienced otherwise.

I understand now that if I was bound by physical chains, I can learn to accept it faster. Because I can see the evidence of what I am fighting against. I can show people the weight that hinders my abilities to escape, and they will empathize and sympathize. They will accept and might even try to lessen my burden or help me escape. But because others cannot see the chains that weights me down. Or bonds me to the faith I have tried so desperately hard to escape. They judge me and belittle the struggle I go through, and the wars I have survived to be here now.

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Before when I was trying to find myself and a place in this world for me, other people’s acceptance was important to me. Thus, I was willing to give up a part of myself to find that acceptance. But now that I found myself; acceptances no longer matter — only higher truths. Truths are what you will find on your spiritual journey. It will set you free. How you will come to accept that truth is another exciting journey. So, do not sell yourself short by buying someone else’s “truth” and make it your own. Be proud of your custom suits designed by complete love — just for you.

Like every drop of water in the ocean and every grain of sand on a beach: If every drop or grain thinks it is too important to be where it is designed to be. Or not important enough to matter and exist where it is — there will be no ocean and no beach for us to appreciate and take pleasure in.

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Remember, religion and spirituality, they are just terms. Old terms that have many attachments. But in actuality they are just a bunch of meaningless lines on a page or screen. It has meaning because we gave it meaning. We identify with it. Terms are use as projections of concepts and ideas that we desire to identify with. They are tools used to communicate how we choose to perceive something as. How we express ourselves and our perspectives. Not what is.

Therefore, I have learned that I cannot let it define me. Nor feel a need to attach myself to it or identify myself by it. I used them to communicate with you in a language I can express that you can understand. But please note, I am not attached to the terms themselves. Like the example I gave of the 6 or 9. It is not the superficial concept of the terms that matters. Nor are our perspectives — that are important. It is the collections of our experiences and the level of clarity behind what those terms means in align with it that matters. What we understand — that are important.

I use terms purely due to other’s people attachment and association with them. Words being the closest and best I must work with. I use them to help articulate and describe what I know to other people. So, they can relate and picture what I am saying to understands the things that I am trying to share. But be mindful, words cannot create complete experiences. Especially, in areas of experiences that we do not have words for. Therefore, cannot be “pictured” by its descriptions.

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To me, all those terms we create to define and describe things are just plain little “comforts”. Comforts we created to give ourselves a sense of control, of knowing, of directions, of expressions, of refinements, and achievements. Little confirmations statement that decorated our ego like stickers. The more terms we collect to be used to describe something, explain something, or identify with something. The more affirmative, the “truer” it rings — as Albert Einstein said, “…a persistent reality”. If we persist long enough — even lies will turn “true”.

Lies can form “realities” in this realm. Merely by our choice in accepting it — or not. Because perspective is relatives instead of what is. There lies the danger in our attachments to terms that defines and identifies. As I have said before — to me, words are systems designed for misinterpretation due to its easily manipulative and adaptive nature. It creates illusions of experiences. Unlike true experiences, it speaks differently to different people.

True experiences are a language hard to describe. It is genuinely bold and blunt. The most straight-to-the-point language of the universe. It is something you know, not something that can be told. Something you feel, not something you can just say or describe. Something you must experience, not something you can just read about. Or talk about to genuinely understand.

“God” is also a term. What we call our creator does not matter. How we see our creator does not matter — only how we understand and experience our creator matters. Remember that a test with obvious answers, is sometimes just a trick question on a not so obvious exam. If we do not learn to recognize the trick questions: We might be fooled into thinking we have passed, when in actuality — we have failed.

Life on the surface is like that exam. The obvious are not always true. If all the questions are easy and obvious. Life would not be much of a test and the road to higher learning and wisdom — would not be so empty and so isolated.