ASR: B7: Chapter 4: “Compensated Acceptance” VS “High Acceptance”
To me, every person — Everything in our world, in this “Reality,” is a masterpiece of our creator to be appreciated with equal amount of respect and gratitude. To a man lost in the dessert, every drop of water matters. Is preciously cherished and appreciated indiscriminately. Like that man in the dessert, to me: everything in life, including every single individual grain of sand — matters, and is a precious gift from our creator.
I do not care what purpose it serves in the grand scheme of things. Yes, I appreciate its deeper meanings, intentions, and purposes too — if there is one. But what matters most to me is in the thoughtfulness of our creator: the effort put into its design and the creation of it. Then, the love and generosity of having it bestowed as a gift to me to be experienced. Everything I touch, taste, see, smell, feel, and sense — is a priceless gift of consciousness — of life. Because it is what makes up my world, my reality and me. To me, there is no beach if every single grain of sand is not created, planned, and place upon the location we know it to exist.
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When I look upon a face: Whether it is black or white, yellow, or green — marked or flawless. I look upon it like a fascinating masterpiece shared with me by the higher up. Why? What draws me to it? What make it unique? What make me want to keep looking at it? What can I learn from it? If I look at it in a different angle through another perspective. How does it make me feel? What more will I learn from it by doing that?
To me, every being I encountered is a fascinating, original piece of artwork — Waiting to be read, discover, and appreciated. Always evolving and transforming, whether it is to recessed into darkness or light. To be a witness to such an epic journey is stunning and enlightening. To be a part of it is humbling.
Thus, I am not looking to judge because I want to compare and feel superior by finding flaws in others. To me, you are a gift. Every encounter is a lesson, a surprise waiting to be unfolded and discovered. I am studying you to discover how to bring forth the magic and wonder I know you hide inside. Talking about you allows others to help me discover what I can miss. Telling you what I see, is me respectfully asking for clarification to things I do not understand.
Also, to highlights and point out where you are miscommunicating; so that you can address and correct it. Because if you are like me, and do not understand why people see you the way they do. Asking you directly for clarification; will bring your attention to the problem so you can resolve it. Instead of allowing you to ignorantly continue to be blind to it. I strongly believe when you indirectly complaints, blame, and accuse others of their flaws. But you do not make the effort to teach or show them where they go wrong so they can change. You add to their problem instead of help. You are their problems. Not the solution.
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Do not get me wrong…I am human at this moment in time. Until my time here is done, I am only human. A little enhanced by my gifts, but still only human. And on my bad days and when things become too much, and my level of toleration is lowered. I do vent with harsh, uncensored blunt honesty. Or careless words (the one I know at least) when overwhelmed to express my frustration over people’s lack of understanding of me — or me, of them.
I mean on days where I have worked a straight 30 hours, without any sleep for a total of 40 or more hours. And someone is complaining to me that they are “so tired” because they choose to — But not necessarily (because they have the privilege of having an option, and it is not a necessity to them) — have had to work “so hard” a total of 7 hours that day. Or that they are “so poor” when they own million-dollars homes. While I am trying to keep just a single stable roof over my head. Can you really blame me if I have no sympathy or toleration for them?
If it makes them feel better to put a “negative” spin on me calling out their flaws by slapping a title such as “judgmental” on it. To redirects the truth of what I say away from them, and label me with a trait — let them do so. As I have said: I am not perfect. I am no Saint. In this physical body and in this realm, I am only human. There is only so much ignorant I can tolerate and compassion I can give to those who are so self-blinded. If being upfront, honest, and practical instead of pretentious and superficial are my flaws — so be it.
I am not afraid of flaws. Everyone has it. It is what we do with it that really matters. Do we recognized, accepted, and appreciated the lessons it teaches — or do we hide from it? For flaws inside a piece of artwork are sometimes what gives it the defining character to make it an original masterpiece. Sometimes the flaws that makes something imperfect for someone who knows it is there — ls a perfect addition to the piece from someone’s else perspective. Hence, we are given flaws to keeps us grounded to our existent, and lessons we are here for.
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As I have mentioned previously, people fascinate me with their diverse uniqueness and overwhelm me sometimes with their many, many sides. I am fascinated by people because there is so, so much thought putted into our creation that it is beyond our ability to appreciate it all at once. To me, everyone is a teacher, every encounter no matter how brief — is important to my journey. Everyone I am blissed to encounter will teach me something new that I do not yet know. If I know it already, then they become a reminder of the lessons I sometimes forget.
So, no, I choose not to use the sword of judgment I am given on others. I choose to use it on myself to remind me each day why I am chosen to come here. It is also to ground me and remind me of why I should be a better person each day. However, I MUST add. Though I find people fascinating and I appreciate passionately every aspect of life and its creation. I must CLARIFY:
Uniqueness is to be appreciated and differences are to be accepted and learn from — But there is a difference between “limitless acceptance” because you are wise and knows the reason why things are the way they are — to accept it. Then, there is “compensating acceptance”: which is inspired by pure selfishness, simple ego, and delusions. Hence, you are accepting something in trade for what you are seeking to compensate for within yourself.
Delusional people DO exist! Sometimes “delusional” does not mean a “mental” or medical conditions. But a lack of self-awareness — An unwillingness to be open to learn what they are being taught. It means a stubborn ego resisting changes. Resisting and blocking the flow of energies that circulates “life”. This block can be seeded and rooted from previous “life” or timelines, not just in this current time. Hence, they are stuck in cycles of lessons unachieved.
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Not many people can understand the difference between “high acceptance” and “compensating acceptance”. Thus, it is why life is created with an expiration. Because without it, those who fails its lesson are dangerous to its very creation. There are so many things that I cannot explain all in this book. So many things that I cannot share nor have the authority to teach another soul. Those are things that must be taught to you directly by the higher power. Lessons taught through obstacles that maps your journey to understanding higher knowledge and wisdom that are beyond me. Or anyone else, to teach you via a book.
If words, storytelling, and sharing experiences via talking, writing, reading, or seeing — Can really teaches all life’s true wisdoms — our journey here is unnecessary. Thus, in this following explanation I will try my best to explain and differentiate the difference between “compensated acceptance” and “high acceptance” — But I will not try to define or teach you, its definition.
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My acceptances and understandings of others is derived from what I can “see” of the bigger picture. Also, by what I know and by the collections of experiences that resulted in higher understanding and deep acceptance of what is. Thus, do not take my words at the limitation of its definitions.
Do not just read the surface “expressions” and assume that just because you live by the literal meaning of its definitions; that you truly understand what I am trying to say and act upon that assumption. The reason why our history is so distorted and full of confusions that has resulted in so many tragedies. Is because ancients words of old scripts, from wise directional guides, such as those in religious teaching and history — Are twisted and misused by so many, to satisfy their own motive and to justify their own actions.
For example: I appreciate every encounter as a lesson to be cherished. But that does not mean if faced with a children rapist or serial murderer — I will accept and can say I “love/accept” that person for their weak character just to prove and broadcast that I am a “good” person or a “saint”. Because that is just stupid!
In life, everything has a limit. There is a reason for that limitation. Until you truly understand and accept the wisdom for those limitations to respect its purpose. You should not go around with declarations of acceptances and forgiveness under the mask of “generosity”, while being ignorant of its true higher purpose and wisdom.
To go around accepting and “loving” everyone without truly understanding what you love. Without truly knowing what “love” is. Blind acceptance and blind “love” is — S.T.U.P.I.D. For example: If you think it is O.K.to KNOWINGLY “accept”, “love”, support, and encourage someone who committed immortal crimes. Who think it is O.K.to rape children or torture and murder others for their selfish reasons. Who think it is O.K. to turn a blind eye to their own shortcoming or bypass others obvious painful reactions. If you think you are “blessed” with higher wisdom and authority to forgive such confession, actions, reactions and continue to “love” and “accept” such an individual. You are truly delusional! Go get help! Now!
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As I have said, I LOVE Life, but I am NOT blind or in avoidance of the reason why it is beautiful — nor disgusting. Also, when I say I appreciate and accept every individual being upon this earth. I say it KNOWING why we are created. I am SHOWN why. Why EACH life is created to be so and its purpose for existing. This is where skeptic will ask many questions that I cannot use words to answers.
But I add this clarification in hope to make it CLEAR that I DO NOT and WILL NOT allow people who are LOST. Who chooses to self-disable, chooses to stay weak, and continue to be misdirected to think it is O.K. to continue to be so. No, I do not accept their incessant use of weak excuses to stay lost within their delusions. To keeps on justify: Their lack of effort, lack self-discipline, lack of awareness, and lack of motivation to be a better person — than the one they are choosing to be. Absolutely in no way am supporting them. Or giving them any illusion of confirmation nor acceptance — that it is O.K to continue to be who they are and O.K to stop trying to be better.
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I do not know the words to use to make what I understand clearly so all OTHERS would utterly understand what I mean. Nor can I describe and use what I am shown as examples to articulate my point. As I have said, words have limited definitions. If used wrongly and misunderstood — it can be just as destructive as an action. Or even more so because it initiates conscious thoughts and intentions. Even if used correctly, for those who choose to be misled and choose to misread it. It can result in the same outcome.
But I want to make it clear to those lost and wishes to twist and corrupt my words and intentions because they can. That is the problem with words. A problem in this mundane world and realm. Words matters too much! Too many cannot see what is beyond the literal words and beyond the physical surface.
Thus, basing everything they know on what they can “see”, while being half blinded. They can twist everything said or written. Can falsify any evidence; to make themselves feel justified to continue to do what they do. Or be the way they are. Thus, it is why many addictions and bad habits are hard to give up.
For example: Rats, mice, cockroaches, and others in the “disgusting” category. For a long period of time I used to think them “disgusting.” Because I am taught that they are so by others descriptions, expressions, actions, and reaction to them. I used to want to cruelly dispose of them as soon as I see them — Indiscriminately of the fact that they did not do anything to harm me or be in my way.
Every time I reacted the way I am taught to — it hurts. But I did not understand why until my most recent episode of Kundalini “awakening”. A couple of “dreams”, put it in a perspective for me. I did not realize how disgusting I am in my perspectives, perception, actions, and reactions. I did what others did and assume it is O.K. — When it is not. Those “dreams” not only put it in perspective for me, but it also reminded me of who I used to be.
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As a child I am afraid of nothing, disgusted by nothing. Even before I am “officially awakened”, I had a very intimate and deep connections to everything around me already. From tiny creatures like insects to plants and rocks. Everything fascinate me, life was like a candy store I got to experience for the first time. I wanted to experience everything, feel everything, and see everything.
I befriended, love, respect, and is grateful for everything within my reach — from the soil beneath my feet to the air I breathe. To me every creature is like a person, there is no distinctions between the energies of “life”. Everything is Life for me. Even plants and rocks where “alive” and deserve respect. I think it is during my late teens that I am taught otherwise and forgot who my higher self truly is. Though, I physically forgot who I am. An unconscious part of me have always remembered the connections even as I am taught new perspective and am drawn into new habits.
Over the years, I am bothered by my reactions. But I am kept too busy to be mindful of the reason why. Even before I came to accept the concept of “spirituality” as something “real” and taught its physical definition about ten years ago — I have always been “spiritual”. Have always known its higher definition all my life — have always lived by its “terms”. But unable to admit it, accept it, nor embrace it. Because I am taught to want to be someone else, taught I am unworthy of who I am.
I was taught that a “spiritual” person must be a certain way. Look a certain way. Act and reaction a certain way. Think a certain way. Hence, I could never be such a person because my differences make it “obvious” that I am not qualify. My actions and deeds are judged by those who look out into the world through the perspective of fogged lens, and the mind-set of someone who is “confident” they know it all. All because they have a history of confirmations of things they can biasedly choose to embrace and ignore.
Hence, do not let others make you less than what you are. Do not let those who are ignorance define you. For you are nothing less than a masterpiece. A diamond in the rough.
